Overtinking

Overthinking

Am I the only one who lays awake at night thinking? About conversations that happened through the day. About things that don't necessarily mean anything but, some how it means something to you. It makes you say did I? Did I say the right thing? Did I make the wrong choice? Was that a slug to me or insult? Was that person actually genuine. All night just up thinking. Overthinking is a killer of positive thinking, I feel. It will make you believe in lies and things that are not there.

I use to and I'm guilty of still laying up at night ananlyzing my day. Theres nothing wrong with that, its when you get stuck. Stuck on that moment of your day requestioning yourself. Follow your frist mind is not just a saying its true. Requestioning yourself only causes self doubt and you have to be confident in your self.

I figured well, how when I already have this doubt in myself? Trial and error look at all the things in your life. Remember moments that are exact to the one you are about to encounter, or your not sure about. Ask yourself did I like how that felt? Did that make me feel good.? Now there comes that little negative voice saying but, you did it. When analyzing remember, you did what you knew how to do at the moment. You did what you had to do with the cards that where dealt. No pity party, own up. Shit happens. Ask yourself will this make me feel good? And don't just think in the now, the moment think long run. If your unsure of a on the spot answer tell them I will get back with you. This is how you will know what to follow or what next steps to take.  Based on experience. A hardhead make a soft ass, mines is as soft as it gets. Emotions don't have to control you,

That is all overthinking is, unsure and unreal emotions, lies you have told yourself to make you believe. Get to know yourself. What you like and don't like your  values and stay true too that. So when you overthink you can tell yourself, I was true to myself and my values that's what matters. Erasing self doubt. As long as you were genuine in your time and attention then that is all that matters. As long as there was no malice in your heart and no ill will. Wondering if it was a slug to you is a waste of time. People spaking nonsense in parables. People that if you feel this way about them you must not trust them or like them. Limit contact or limt information you give them. They cant say anything if they know nothing. Therefore you don't have to overthink anything because how could that possibly be towards you. All you speak on is positive.

I still overthink from time to time. But knowing that I'm being true to me and having values that I believe in actually makes it a lot harder to overthink and let the negativity in.

I hope my intentions lifted someone.

Project Bliss

Project Bliss 

This will be a series of post our vegetable garden. Well, I like to say building a habit. Why? Because we are doing this garden organic. So we will be using nature and companion gardening. As well as beneficial bugs to aid in pest control and companion gardening to aid in pest control and flavor enhancement. We need pollinators like butterflies, bees, and birds. wind an water play a role in that too. Its going to be a fun and exciting journey.

First I need to start with the layout of my garden that's where all the companion gardening comes in. To those that have no idea what companion gardening is. In a nut shell some plants help other plants when planted together or in close proximity. They can help in pest control and in providing extra nutrients to the plant itself. For example peas and beans are good companion plants for tomatoes. Once you have harvested the peas and beans the roots and the dying leaves provide nitrogen to the tomato plant. In case you didn't know, tomato plants love nitrogen. There a good fertilizer, just like a rotting potato can grow a rose cutting. The rose feeds off the potato as it rots, growing roots in turn restarting the process. The circle of life isn't nature, beautiful.

Now if you read some of my previous blogs you know I'm a cheap person. I'm down with propagating or taking seeds from produce you bought from the store or regrowth from produce from the store. That helped me begin my seedlings that I just started. So, in my garden there will be...... drum roll....... lettuce, tomatoes, squash, zucchini, cabbage, kale, eggplants, radish (we don't eat them but for pest control), carrots, potatoes, garlic, cucumbers and spinach. The herbs and flowers we will grow to help aid the habitat will be drum roll...... borage, chives, thyme. basil. parsley, nasturtium, bee balm, lemon balm, rosemary, marigolds, cosmos, forget me nots, oregano, dill, alyssum, and baby's breath. Each plant plays its roll, the flowers mostly attract pollinators while deterring pest the same for the herbs.

With the help of my aunt we have picked a perfect location for our garden where it receives sunlight and shade. Also a few of the herbs mentioned I already have some established, like rosemary, basil and parsley. I will just be propagating them and transplanting those into the garden. So far I have taken a tomato and sliced it into for quarter inch thick slices. I placed thee in dirt and on in a homemade seed starter I made out of a water bottle. Very cheap, I use every thing, and its more environment friendly too. Why send it to the landfill recycle, recycle, recycle, mother earth will thank you in the long run. I have sliced a potato in  half and placed it in dirt, both are in sunny spots. I took the seeds from a bell peeper and planted them in, once again a homemade greenhouse. I like to start my seeds in there too. But, I also placed some in a damp napkin inside a plastic bag, in a sunny spot too. So I will surely have a success rate. I also took some seeds from a zucchini and planted them in a green house These are the vegetable seeds I have planted so far.

Now, I'm gloing to get a shovel and till the dirt. We decided to plant in raised garden beds that we will be making out of  bricks and pallets. Let the digging begin. I will be coming back with more updates and pictures of how Project Bliss is going.

 fell free to leave any suggestions or comments. Any advice helps.

Creating Paradise

Creating Paradise

Birds of Paradise are very beautiful plants. It takes them 4 to 7 years to even reach its peak sometimes 10. When it gives bloom to some of the most beautiful flowers in my opinon. It is not an easy trek you must nurture them, care for them, and meet there needs to achive devine beauty. Devine paradise. But once established and in bloom they stay in bloom for nine months out of the year. Some places such as texas all year round.

These babys are not easy to give birth too. The seeds look like little pea sized heads with orange hair. You have to soak the seeds for three days, chaninging the water at any sign of debris. After your three days your going to want too make a little scrap on the seed, this is to help it take root. Place it in some good soil and water it thoroughly. Then the wait and nurturing begins. You won't see any sign of growth till maybe a month or two later. It will take 7 years for it to be able to produce flowers, but as its growing it grows into a big beautiful bush.

These babys remind me of the fact that we are all birds of paradise. The same way we must nurture them month by month we must nurture ourselves. We are all little seed heads with orange wild hair. Not literally of course. Through life we get scrapes and bruise but when you look at it, that was needed to help us as a human too take root. It may take some time to take root, to find yourself. Oh but when you do you florish and after years of nutureing and hard work you bloom into a beautiful flower basking in our own paradise that we have made for ourselves. Then you will continue to bloom forever.

I am going to continue this long journey of growth with my Birds of Paradise. Everytime something gets tough or rough it will be a constant reminder to nuture myself and take my time. Paradise dosent happen over night.

I hoped this touched someone in the universe today.

Feel free to leave comments and suggetions.

Values of Alone time

Alone

When you here alone how does it make you feel? Just think about it Capital A L O N E. Alone! it makes some people feel sick. The thought of no one there. The thought of not having a human interaction with someone other than yourself all day. Some people just are not comfortable with it to be honest, it scares them. They have no idea what to do when there alone.

I honestly love alone time, everyone needs a little alone time. Its actually healthy to get some alone time. Time to pamper yourself or to self evaluate you and your situation. You can reconnect with yourself or the things you like to do that you stopped doing because, you were sucked into everyone elses time and problems. As Tyrese Gibbson said you have control of your minute, your hour and your day why spend it with people that will hinder you. Alone time gives you time to basically evaluate all your relationships, is it healthy? Your habits, your current situation, is it motivating you in life? Ask yourself is it healthy? Yeah its great but, can it improve in any kind of way.?

You can not truly self evaluate in the presence of others. When you self evaluate its about you. Yes I said it, all about you. That may sound selfish but it is what it is. You need you to tell you who you are. You need to ask you are you being true to yourself.? Not sally and tom, not your family and not your friends. They barely know there self and they may not be happy either. You, deep inside your intuition knows, what you feel about yourself. Because its not what they think about you, its what you think about you. The mind is a powerful thing and it can make are break you.

That is why you should invest in your mind and yourself. If your not ok then no ones ok. Investing in alone time is a great way to invest in yourself. To find yourself and know who you are, get comfortable with you. Sometimes when things get rough or you have those phases of transformation don't feel bad for wanting to be alone never feel bad for wanting to be alone for wanting space to evaluate. It is nessacary for growth.

I hope my positive intentions reached someone in the universe. Please comment and let me know how you feel about alone time? What do you do in your alone time?

Daily Gratitude

Gain an Attitude for Gratitude

The world is becoming an increasingly ill place. Not just the fact that mother earth is slowly dying due to climate changes. No. humanity is dying right along with it. The new trend now a days is to bottle it up and never talk about it. No one, ever really wants to listen right? Everyone's got there own thing's going on.

The world is full of unpredictable changes, and the news is full of strife and grief. It can be hard to keep your head up and let your hair down. It can be hard to appreciate the light the universe has bestowed on us.

Starting your day bright and early if your like me with a strong willed kid everyday is full of unexpected and unexplained changes. These things are out of our control. Gets you down when you cant control things, huh? You human, you! Change is inevitable, you have to roll with the punches. That's why making a gratitude list can be very rewarding to your personal growth.  It will teach you to look at the things you can control. It can also teach us to appreciate the little things in life. as you reread it you can feel the chills of happiness run down your spine. It can teach us about ourselves, the little pick me ups that make us happy that we didn't notice. It is a commitment I make every morning when things have slowed down.

We often forget the little things, I'm guilty of it too. Its the little things that put a smile on your face and give you that big emotional umpp....

My List

1. I'm grateful I woke up this morning

2. I'm grateful I had my morning coffee

3. I'm grateful the kid ate all her breakfast with no fuss aka (get out of jail free card)

4.Im grateful I got that parking spot right by the front door at work

5. I'm grateful all my clothes are clean

6. I'm grateful that my coworker got me lunch

Such small things can make you feel happy inside, and not much effort is needed. It is a daily task that will take you 5 seconds, tops to complete. I will admit, at first it was hard for me, I choose the basic reason but then as I continued to commit to it. I began too see many reasons to be grateful to wake up each  morning. You can even use it to be grateful for your problems too.

Gratitude Problems

1. My car broke down, I'm grateful I even have a car to fix

2. I was let go from my job, I'm grateful that now while looking for a job I have more time to spend with my family

3. The kid didn't finish all her dinner, I'm grateful that she at least ate half.

There is always something to be grateful for, you must first try to change the way you see things. And a daily gratitude list is a good start towards positivity.

 I hope this resonates with someone in the universe. Give it a try it could change your attitude towards life. Let me know what you are grateful for?